Thank you to everyone who posted to my topic. I needed the support and you gave it to me. I am grateful. He did come home alive, which was great. We will be talking more this weekend about space, when he has recovered from the relapse and I have had some sleep.
evergrowing wrote:In the beginning I was barely getting out of bed each day and I was sick and tired. All I could bring myself to do was write a list of things that made me feel better, relieved my stress, brought a smile to my face, comforted me. I then picked one thing off of that list every day. It seemed pointless at first but someone I was close to who overcame depression told me to do it. I could see that it helped her.
For some reason, making a small effort each day to do something nice for myself helped me begin to dig myself out of the hole I was in. I began to realize how precious my life was and how much I wanted to find ways to enjoy each day -- even if there was a lot of chaos in my life.
I love this suggestion. I will start that tonight. Thank you!
Cheryl wrote:As long as you keep coming, you are never alone. Do you have f2f meetings you can attend, if not through Nar-Anon then through Ala-non?
I have found a f2f alanon meeting on Thursdays which has been very helpful. And I do a family support meeting every Monday via the treatment centre my husband was in. I purchased the Alanon "Courage to change" and Pathways to Recovery. I guess the next step is to open them up
Gerilyn wrote:Eventually, I cried less. I made an effort to get on with my life even though I ached for my child. I had to keep saying that serenity prayer over and over. I had to envision my HP with His arms around me and her HP with His arms around her.
I am still surpised how much I have been crying..only because I am not somone who tears up alot. I feel things deeply, but crying has not always been easy for me. But I seem to need to do it and I am ok with that. I finally let my AH see me cry for the first time last week. He didn't know what to do with it. Not my problem.
Rereading my post and others reaffirmed this is definately a place I need to get back to coming to on a regular basis, as I had been before. I guess I "relapsed" as well, in my own way.
Tomorrow will be better. I will continue to get stronger.