I can't imagine what you have gone through and still suffer with in loosing your daughter to addiction. As a father of an addicted son it is often my fear taht I will lose him. This insidious desease is so hard to understand and as I have learned I can't do anything to help my AS. This, as a parent is hard to accept, but accept it I must, for my own menatal health. I get strength from everyone on the site, especially from people like yourself who still continue to recover after such a terrible loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Accept things as they are and rest your weary mind.