I'm so sorry for the pain you are feeling right now. Like others have said,
I know it all too well. It is that fear of losing my daughter (either to
a drug overdose or suicide), that keeps me coming here and keeps me
going to my face-to-face meetings. And, it is that fear that keeps me
focused on working on me and learning (and practicing) to turn things
over to my Higher Power.
As much as I want to sometimes believe that I have the power to intervene
in any harm that may come to my daughter, the reality is, there is little I can
do. For me, it helps to come here and surround myself with people who
understand. And, I am learning to love my daughter in a different way.
Mostly, I am doing everthing I can to take care of me. When I feel myself
slipping back into doing crazy things and having those runaway crazy thoughts,
I know it's time for me to call a recovery friend, get together with someone who
understands what I am going through, call my therapist, get to a meeting (Al-anon
if there is not a Nar-anon meeting). Anything to subdue my fears and remind myself
of my own need for recovery and well-being.
I will be praying for your daughter. And, praying for you.
Stay close; we understand. We are here.
Hope and hugs,
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on Mon Jul 02, 2012 12:58 pm, edited 1 time in total.
God, grant me the Serenity to accept the people I cannot change,
the Courage to change the one I can,
and the Wisdom to know it's me!