Meeting Thurs. 5/10 8 pm est Topic

[river rock]

Changing our thinking, by controlling our reactions is the topic today.
I shared Tuesday in my meeting that I was off focus, thinking negative,
having a hard time with this caregiver thing for my mom. I have had alot
of feelings the last month that are not at all what Im about or the person I
want to be. Ive read someowhere in my stuff that
Self-pity blocks effective action. The more we indulge in it the more we feel that the answer to problems is a change
in someone else, when really its our thinking and how we choose to react to things . I should bve grateful I have this
time with her, I normally love to do for my parents. I took it on myself to clean their house every two weeks,
about three yrs ago, taking her to dr appts, is endless, no problem, but this 24/7 with my 2 sisters has really taken
on a new attitude for me, and it is ugly. Im so tired, and have health issues, and then I remember reading
Exhaustion is the result when we use energy in mulling over the past with regret, or in trying to figure out ways to escape a future that hasn't even come yet. Likewise, setting up an image of the future and anxiously hovering over it for fear that it will or won't come true uses all of our energy and leaves us unable to live today. Yet living this day is the only way to have a life. Ok, well then,Guess that tells me to re-examine my thought process. Im off balance here.
I need to get out the gratitude list,, and check it twice, find out if Im being naughty or nice, and I dont like what
I see in myself. Time to take a look at changing our thinking and our reactions.
River rock